Am I this mother fucking crazy or are people making me?

I swear to the gods just fucking be considerate of other mother fucking people. Quit making me doubt mother fucking everything I do. I don’t deserve that shit. Ok ok, I’m sure you guys are all ten times confused right now. As am, I.

Do you have common courtesy? My husband didn’t come equipped with that option apparently. I’m so ready to trade his ass in on a new model with better technology. Mine acts like a mother fucking Kia Rio from the 2000s, standard edition.

Ok so he has a buddy named Julian, they have been friends for a long time. They worked together back in the day. Well, he now lives like idk less than ten minutes away?

He asked Xander to purchase him a cable he needed, then asked him to ride up and get it. It’s about an hour away, so about a 2 hour round trip kinda thing. I told him that’s fine I’m going to lay down and take a nap, that way he would be home at the time I wanted to get up. He said he would do that or he was going to ask if he could later. So I went to bed with the idea one he would be back about when I woke, or he would wake me to ask/tell me he is leaving. Right, are we all on the same page?

I woke about 1.5 hours later and he was GONE! Ok Ok Naudia he is probably on his way back, right? Wrong! I get a message back about 10 minutes later, that says “I just left about 10 minutes ago”, are you kidding me?

So when I ask why he didn’t tell/ ask me when he found out a time. He told me that Julian was running late and he didn’t want to wake me by telling me or a message which might wake me up. Is that sweet yes, is it appropriate to do that to your significant other, NO, the answer is always no. We didn’t have plans per se, but we did plan to spend the weekend together. And it was not as we agreed upon my going to sleep.

So when I told him I was upset he didn’t understand why. I told him he was getting incredibly horrible about saying sorry or showing sympathy towards anything. This will be explained later in other blogs on why Xander is the way he is often.

He said he knows he is like this, and wishes like hell he was not. I believe him to some point and here is why. I believe he doesn’t like to make me unhappy or angered. I believe he doesn’t always see what he is doing. I believe he doesn’t know these feelings and doesn’t know how to handle them.

I DO NOT believe he is trying as hard as he says he is, otherwise I would believe I would see progress somewhere, in the smallest form is fine just something! Ya know and then he was all gun hoe about having this “Chat Buddy”, and don’t you know it’s been 3 weeks since they have had any meaningful conversation. (find out more in )

He bugged and bugged and bugged me about making this work, finding him someone (yes I found girls to talk to him), being ok with more than I was at the time, then breaking rules, not keeping to schedules, etc, we got passed all that and the fucker stops talking to the one he has been speaking to over in the U.K by Scotland last 2 or 3 months. I have been speaking to her as well, it’s pretty cool to talk to a place that is so different than here in the U.S.A.

In fact, I just razzed him for it the other day because I think I have talked to her more than him as of late. Anyways SEE I am already feeling better just getting to explain it to you guys. Thank you. Even if its just one of you 😉

 

 

 

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